Monday, June 27, 2005

I am seriously considering becoming a mean and nasty bitch. I'm am tired of being nice. All it seems to get me is shit on. Bf has been acting strange for about 2 weeks now. He has been pushing me away. Friday we finally talked about it. He said that he is not used to being with anyone and sometimes feels smothered. I told him that he should have just said something (we had been spending a lot of time together). He says that he doesn't want to break up, but he's giving very mixed signals, and says that what ever happens he wants us to stay friends.

He said that he was going to be gone for the weekend, then calls me on Saturday to come and pick him up and his friends house. Then he installs new speakers in my car and all but ignores me. We were supposed to go back to his friends, but he changed his mind and decided to take a nap so I went home. I called and left a message on Sunday that I wanted to speak to him. When he called me back, I told him that I had been thinking about our talk on Friday and wanted to discuss it further. I wanted to know when he wanted to get together, he asks me to come over and we talk. He told me that I could have stayed on Saturday. I ended up staying the night (the first in a week). When I tried to initiate sex he told me that he wasn't in the mood, yet he cuddled me all night. He kissed me goodbye this morning when I left and wasn't home when I went to have dinner with his sil (he knew that I was coming over). She and I talked and she is a puzzled by his behavior as I am. We've only been seeing each other 2 months.
After dinner tonight, I removed my things from his room and brought them home, maybe with out my stuff there, he won't feel so smothered.

Broomhilda worshipped the goddess at 9:32 PM

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