Thursday, February 10, 2005

Second cup of coffee and I'm not sure if I'm coherent yet but we shall see. What to do today, I have absolutely no idea whatsoever. I should take the two boxes of collectables that I have waiting for me at the house to the consignment shop. I just don't know if I want to go to the house today. The ex needed the car on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday early so I had stayed at the house Sunday through Tuesday nights. I need a break from seeing him. He is grasping at straws, still not wanting to accept the fact that I don't love him and can't continue in this relationship. He and my sister now think that I am just hormonal because of the menopause. I have tried explaining that I have not been happy for years, it does no good. Looking back, I probably should have left several years ago. I kept thinking though, that all relationships go through good and bad times, you hang in there and work through the bad times. It just never got better. He is not a bad man, just too possessive and needy. Too clingy, he has no friends out side of my family and wanted none. One can actually get sick of hearing the words I love you when you know the one saying them has an obsessive need to be reassured you love them back. I am not an easy person to live with, I have a foul temper, my personality can at times be forceful and demanding. I am not a domestic goddess, I require a lot of affection and as I have posted before my sex drive is on the high side. I also need to have some breathing room, I need to have time with my friends and interests outside of a relationship. I believe in fidelity, if one is in a relationship, one does not cheat. That relationship can not be ones entire world either. There was also no passion, I know that over time passion changes, but it is still there. You can have passion without love, but love without passion withers and dies.

Broomhilda worshipped the goddess at 7:16 AM

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